Current mood:

tired

I'm so happy that today is almost over. It has not been a good day.

I forgot everything at home this morning because I was running late because I woke up late. Kaasan was not happy, she said she came in three times to knock me up, but I didn't even hear her. I was probably dreaming, but I don't remember anything that happened. Then she told me that I should get more sleep and not be out all the time, and told me to hurry up. I made it to school in time so that was all right.

But this morning, I forgot to bring my history paper to class, so I asked sensei if I could run back to my locker and get it, but it wouldn't open, and I didn't want her to think I was ditching class, so I didn't try to fight with it. I went back without it, and explained and she said it was fine if I got it to her before the end fo the day.

The janitor went to look at it, but he just got it open now, and my paper's not there. Which means it must be home, and I realized I left everything at home, my change purse and my cell phone, because I was too busy.

I guess I've just been distracted and preoccupied, but... I don't know. Everything just seems to be really complicated lately, and I don't like it. Soemtimes it seems that no matter what I do it's just not enough and I'm tired of that feeling. I feel guilty when I'm relaxing or having fun, and I don't know why.

I want to talk to oniichan about it, because he's good at listening to me, but I don't want to put that on him. He's been pretty upbeat, and Kamio-kun and Shinji-kun have helped. I'm stopping by again today. I don't know what to do about the paper.